Idiosyncracy

WOWIE!!!

2009-08-26T16:40:00.000-07:00

its obvious that this blog is updated every 6 months i guess..... approximately there. my computer is so lagging that i get pissed off typing cause it would just freeze itself when nothing is running. but whatever. sheesh.anyway its the 6th day of fasting month and its so fast that time passes. well whatever this blog isnt about that. its whats happening in my family!!!!!!!!!! yesterday was the biggest day (so far) for my entire family. welcome onboard mafi.....lol i forgot your other full name. but hey hey i cant wait to see what it holds..... exciting! honestly but lets see..... congrats u both!

i love you

2009-05-11T02:40:00.000-07:00

this is utterly boring. there is absolutely nothing at all to write about for these 4 months. to be honest i just think everything in life should remain private and within an inner circle. there is no point to go blogging life stories on the internet knowing its just out there. so yeah . mothers day just passed - i called you ma...who was sabotaged to dance with my papa but i think it was really sweet and whoever u are who wrote their names down. iam glad u did..thank you. i want to see you both dance together cause it has been ages. i miss all of you guys so much my family my friends and my love. i miss you all.. ate i wil come back i promise.

more pics

2009-01-20T16:13:00.000-08:00

2009-01-20T15:47:00.000-08:00

happy new year 21 days overdue~~~

2009-01-20T15:37:00.000-08:00

hi people,
i am still alive and kicking not as hard but i still can kick! i am excited to the core......... omg...not quite i have sooo many things to say right now but i will just hold it in.. summary of 2008, pretty much a really rough year very actually lots of tears lots of it to be honest and yet lots of fun filled laughter as well.. birthdays came and wnt people all got older yet maintained the same maturity or lost them... come to think aobut it not many i knew gained any sense haha... but went to a friends wedding, had good friends and gossips all year round, END OF 2 YEARS of theory study at milson...major graduation...(unofficial one still have a year left), went to a ball...first time with guys in it as compared to back in high school (cedar) all girls... got highly wasted and drunk on new years day and come to think about it... my 5 days stay back home with my lovely family and my son and his 13 other siblings (i hope i calculated it right).... anyway...

some pictures have been posted and i have many others more, like during bryans birthday and how rojo(my flatmate) kicked him hard and others whacked the hell out of him for a literally birthday BASH! so yeah... so not many been put in but enjoy so far..and thanks to the girls especially hui jie who even though is back home have managed to be there for me through thick and thin and lim tay oh who has managed to change her mobile number without informing me and thus resulted in me texting this random person in singapore whom i have no idea who it is... all the texts to disturb you and even wish you happy birthday! hahaha,,,...... misses you girls...

2008-11-12T02:22:00.000-08:00

actually to be honest ill be frank.............. man shit life... u think you can try solving the things in your life and changing but nothing changes so it makes you swollow your own words cause what you expect never happens and its just so damn frustrating. like what the hell is going on. why should you just keep on trying and NOTHING ever changes! you wanna do something but its just not working. nothing works anymore. nothing nothing at all. man IF i could just say fuck it i would but then i have to pay a dollar and cant touch it... so there i owe like 24 dollars in like 3weeks thats good i think.... but what else .............................. i have no freaking rights no more! just to shut up and shut up and shut up! i wanna run away. leave everything i have behind and just do what i wanted to do. be with animals. human compared to animals are shit and stupid. the company they give is useless. while animals put a constant smile on your face everyday every second and everytime even though life is going down the drain! but yeah HUMANS ARE SHIT! they just pathetic and stupid.

BORRRRRIIINNNGGGGG!!!!!!

2008-11-12T02:15:00.000-08:00

ITS SO FREAKING BORING!!! omg!!!! wth! i am extremely bored. man this place is shit! to be straight forward! i dont know how people can live in new zealand. it just pretty much sucks..not the main places i guess but all the small towns. yeah the scenery is spectacular but on the other side of things there is pretty much nothing to do here. outdoor stuff like trcking would be nice but the weather is unpredictable here in palmerston north and it just really sucks man! i wish i was somewhere warm and just kept busy so that my mind doesnt start wondering and thinking.... i figured my thoughts and my inner voice is killing my vibe! its just making me think all the extremes and it just bloody tiring. i wanna swap places with someone ................... lets go on a holiday!!!! me myself and i.... hahahahaha................i am going insane just being here. i may be smiling but those who knows me well know my mind is going GOOOIIINNNGGGGG GGGOOONNNNEEEEEE!!! bezerk! bla............

hi ya'll i am still alive!

2008-09-18T02:32:00.000-07:00

okay people! i have not written here for ages! but here i am , this is me, there's nowhere else on earth i'd rather be(actually i wanna be by my son ayate!) but i am here!!! WOOO HOO!! hallooooo i am still surviving...wait let me say that by the end of the year...lol.... hi hi! hope everyone is good! this is written by the brand new 22 year old! wahahahha....

Penguins and their colour.....

2008-07-04T04:32:00.000-07:00

Theres so much beauty in the world - the rich colours, scent, landscapes and the wonderful innocence of animals. the thought of penguins in the large white ice covered area sounds nice but what happens to the seals, coloured fish and the other minority. what happens to all those mixed breed non pedigreed animals? the huge "cute" white polar bear eats seals, which are also being hunted by the black and white killer whales who also preys on the same penguins. penguins hunt silvered fish and seals prey on all the other shellfish i guess. man kills and get killed by the polar bears and shellfish..... so in the end.... who is the greatest???? does the ice caps win? does the gorgeous yet treacherous and back stabbing white cold win????????????? who wins and who loses out??? does the coloured outcast silver fish lose everything? is that why its population is abundance so theres lots of extras to lose and yet balance still remains??? what happens??

today is the day!

2008-06-13T04:54:00.000-07:00

ITS FRIDAY THE 13TH! i have to blog it on my day! wth..i mean i have to have it on my blog! hahaha.... HI hi!!! HOWZ LIFE peeeepppooozzz??? ME having exams exams and i am god forsakenly silent now. ta ta!

NEW PICTURES!!!! Finally...

2008-06-06T19:34:00.000-07:00

here it is people! new pictures of how i am doing back here in COLD and Miserable Palmmerston North! if not for my friends and great company here life is a dull.. on the otherhand.... its a nice calm and quiet but very COLD and WINDY place..... here comes winter... in the meantime.... here are just 3 pictures of me and hahaha..who else.... at david's 21st birthday at AQABA?? i do not know how to spell that restaurants name....... had a jolly good fun time there!!!

ohhhhh...and i passed my flight test!! CPL!! lucky lucky!!! now here comes exams! cross fingers and hope i do it well...insyaallah!!!

whats NEW!!

2008-05-15T16:36:00.001-07:00

WHATS new??? nothing is new...jst browsing through my pics folder and found this one... tay chuan do you remember those times we went through! hahaha... 8,9,10!! stretch OUT!!!!! splish splash splish splash!!! hahaha... twisting moments!! wait hold on!! YOU'RE STILL IN IT!! hahhaa.... nomore for me thats why bloody fat waist getting worst aye! ahahah!!!

anyway - whats new in your life people! mine is becoming a bore! if thats how u spell it right? I AM soooooooooo ultimately lazy and my brain is losing its function! whats new!! NOTHING!!! yawnz yawnz and yawnz! i seriously need a break on this and need to get out from palmy! after exams I WILL!!! even if i am supposed to go alone! AARRGGHHHH need a breather!!

comments NUMB me

2008-04-27T01:12:00.000-07:00

when you least expected something you never do get prepared to face it. i finally found out that its me not you. i just think that this is all me. it blinds me badly and i just couldnt have seen it. i know it was self denial or some sort but i think i am on the low low. this may seem rather emothional or crazy but i just ate a bowl of triple choc and white choc raspberry ice cream with guylian chocolates and its not making my any better after facing it yesterday. i just feel rather fat now and really frustrated.

i said yes cause she was your friend. but to trust you i had to see it with my own eyes if anything would go wrong. if you were emotionally sharp of how i felt u know what you could have done. but when i came , you guys were close. i told you i wasnt comfortable from the start cause of the past but i thought why not give it a go and see. but instead, no. my woes and insecurities are drowning my happy days and my mind and feelings cant go further. i need YOU TO PROVE IT. to help me. it might not be anything to you, but its everything to me.

i am still learning as there is sooo many stones ahead for me to step on but it could all go a stray if i cant get any help. i cant do it by myself i need you to help me. stand at the end so that i know where to go. my breathing changes and my mood just swings violently. my bad side is catching up with me and i think i am evolving to something i might not be able to control soon. so where do i go on from here? what should i do...its just slowly taking charge inside of me in silence and soon it might burst and i wouldnt know what to do cause there is nothing i could have done.

venting my anger out!

2008-04-08T03:19:00.000-07:00

ok this is my blog and i feel like i can write whatever shit i feel like i want to! talking face to face is bad enough but now NOW fucking online too... just mentioning it not bloody doing anything .... i would write it all in my diary but fuck it i wont wanna waste any page about some nonsensical one sided pathetic lame tantrum!

AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGGHHHHHH!!! I FEEL LIKE hitting something..(people violence is not the answer to solving things) BUT it feels sooo good to just break a vase or throw something at someone and when it hurts u say sorry but inside ur smiling from ear to ear!! woo hoo!!! ( thats mean i know) but i write this to try to explain what i am boiling up inside! YOU LISTEN TO one before u jump to conclusion( i know i contradict myself on that !!!) but HEY wtf did i do!

i've been laying silent and just on the low but dont boil me over! fuck i feel like a dormant volcano which erupts yet wants to extinguish oneself! AARRGGHH!! I WANT TO puch something and feel pain! BUT I KNOW it hurts ( go on laugh i am a bloody coward!) what the fuck did i do wrong this time! THIS PICTURE JUST SUMMARIZES IT ALL!!!

BHIF.........

2008-03-28T03:25:00.000-07:00

BOO HOO its Friday! there goes the weeks easter holidays and all i've done is stay home. well better than anything though. i have great company though a little disagreements here and there but HEY i have a roof over my head from the HOT and i mean HOT sun ( its supposed to be autumn ) anyway - suddenly my regime of exercising has slowly ceased to exist and i am mind tripping over it to start anwe again! ROLLER COASTER ride i guess aye!

HAHAHA - i had to end that with aye.... what to do.... influenced a little! anyway MR is at his outdoor first aid camp and i think he is having fun ..... i hope... it would be pretty fun i think... but i am being my lazy couch potato BUM! on my bed laying down and typing... the only constant thing thats burning my calories are my fingers, mouth cheekbones and eyelids! HAHAHHA... everything else my fat bum slumpy tummy sagging arms! HAHAHAH gaining it! face getting round and rounder! HEEE...

TIME TO GET A MOVE ON! step up 2 is marvellous!! hot hot hot and steamy!!! ooohhh dreamy thoughts just flowing through my mind here! anyway i am hoping you guys get a great week ahead and SPUR on!!! (motivating thoughts)

relief and slight breath of fresh air.....hope

2008-03-13T01:51:00.000-07:00

THANK YOU !!!!!!!!!! ALLAH THANKS YOU!!!! RASULLULLAH! OH MY GOD!!!
you do not know how self excited i am! sounds lame but finally i have completed and passed s2fe! LUCK luck LUCK!!! thanks you... i can smile for awhile before diving into the next one - CPL..... hahaha...life just keeps getting comlicated!!! but for now...sweet sweet smilez!

thank you all!!

vague space of wonders

2008-03-02T21:01:00.000-08:00

its been rather awhile since i last wrote my daily thoughts.....

its been a roller coaster ride for awhile both physically and mentally.it goes up and up never fully reaching its peak and then it drops all the way down. it slumps down never hitting the bottom but close, and then goes up again. theres turns and twists but never straight.

i thought personally it was gonna be an end on the 29th of february 2008. nothing turned out right and it all seemed rather bleak. if anyone knows me well. i doubt they know how long it took for me to trust them... for those of you who does .... lol. sorry didnt mean to take that long. but yeah...

i am trying to get it back again. but i guess once its almost lost what you find aint never the same. but yet you try to believe it is. theres so many personal stuff i wanna tell you but just cant. i need more courage but i need a boost from you too. i always have people to motivate me and i am thankful to be that lucky. but yeah. i hope we get the chance back again to chnage some stuff and speak out. but i am thankful there is a chance.....

ps . i didnt mean to change the pasword but at that very moment i personally felt betrayed. so i wanted to run. u can use my computer again ..... i hope you do...

AGREE!!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-14T22:28:00.000-08:00

the perfect boyfriend"
Message: Every girl dreams that one day
she will
find a boy that does these things for
her. Even the smallest action can have
the BIGGEST impact in someones life.

• give her one of your t-shirts to
sleep in.

• leave her cute text notes.

• kiss her in front of your friends.

• tell her she is gorgeous..

• look into her eyes when you talk to
her.

• let her mess with your hair

• touch her hair.

• just walk around with her.

• "FORGiVE HER FOR HER MiSTAKES"

• look at her like she`s the only one
you see.

• tickle her even when she says stop.

• hold her hand when you`re around your
friends.

• when she starts swearing at you, tell
her you love her.

• let her fall asleep in your arms..

• get her mad, then kiss her.

• tease her and let her tease you back.

• stay up all night with her when she`s
sick.

• watch her favorite movie with her.

• kiss her forehead.

• give her the world.

• write her letters.

• let her wear your clothes.

• when she`s sad, hang out with her.

• let her know she`s important.

• let her take all the photos she wants
of you.

• kiss her in the pouring rain.

• when you fall in love with her, tell
her.

• and when you tell her, love her like
you've never loved someone before.

OH MY GOD!!!! this i soooooo agree!! fully!!!! hands up to the person who got this idea - smart ass!!! hahahhaa....

Happy Valentines Day!

2008-02-13T20:51:00.000-08:00

ITS a major commercialized day - but what the heck - i still enjoy celebrating it with or without a date! HAHAHA...

anyway , clinton gave me A HUGE HUGE HUGE mega huge bouquet of flowers GORGEOUS HUGE PINK ROSES and butterflies within it - CHOCS from munchkins and liquorice sweets! now havein eaten a whole lot of them - sore throat i must say! HAHAHA....
SO THIS is how it went - porge texted me saying hapy valentines and then asked whether i got anything. having not been in my room after a cancelled flight i laid in the lounge and tried to sleep there...until i got bored of it..i walked to my room and OH MY GOD!!!!!!!! the flowers and beautiful WRAPPED CHOCS AND LIQUORICE were there on my desk!!! i didnt have a clue about this ... he just put it in my room and ...didnt tell me nothing..and left to university to enrol in a paper.... sheesh...cheeky BUT sweet and charming.... thank you!!!

i gave him - home baked and self burnt cookies hahahah!!! ooops with m&ms saying.... nice 3 words..hahhaa...what else.... come on!!!! hahaha... but i hoped he didnt get fod poisoning... hahaha... anyway it was meant to be bed in breakfast but had an early morn flight so cant practically cook and serve it so i had to just put it on his desk!! hahaha..... lame...

we spent most of the time redecorating the fish tank and voila - donald HAD TO COME TO THE HOUSE on valentines day!!!! SWEET - wateva..... so now its stil mid day ill see how this day ends......crossing fingers!

ps: ill try put up pictures sooon..of the beautiful flowers!!!

LOVE THE TANK!!! bloooppp blooopppp

2008-02-03T23:15:00.000-08:00

today has seem to start off on a good foot. for once,my nav was cancelled and i decided to do something more productive then just going back home. i decided to watch videos and to do mass briefs! YEAH i could sign it off my wall! ANYWAY, i had a great heart to heart talk last night and i think its awesome. seriously. i let alot of things out and at least i hope so did the other one. but then woot woot - (lifts brow up and down)- my feelings got better and stronger. i am all smiley and cheery now. but i think i gotta start moving now.

getting lasy again though. must keep to it! so at 2030 tonight i will go jogging. for the fun of it. though weather is ertty ,uch bloody windy and kinda cold but heck it. ill do my best with warm warm clothes. heeeeee.......

we bought more fish. and named 2. one is tyson(thats his) and the cutesie i love is named jackie blue( HAHAHA - finally i managed to name someone that!)

apoLogies! MAJOR!

2008-01-30T23:04:00.000-08:00

I JUST DELETED A PREVIOUS post which i had written when i was absulotely pissed and just down right angry. i know i may have said really frank but mean things about you but sorry it was all i miscommunication. i really am truly sorry.

it was at that particular moment when i was venting out everything in words. it may have really hurt you cause you might have meant it differently. i am sorry.

ps; but its my blog - and i write some crappy stuff here which totally depends on my mood so - - - SORRY! really. and thanks for the NICEST ever OH MY BLOODY GOSH! destressing thing ever - a fishy tank! THANKS.... i really love it!

too bad for the mice - i liked that too... but it bit me hard! HAHAHA....sorry babe i really didnt mean it that bad.

hopes wishes aims wants thoughts memoirs

2008-01-24T17:16:00.000-08:00

its a totsy turvy world i guess. when time plays its prank on you and all you can do is await the results and hope. you are unsure of what is left for u to choose as what u decide becomes part of your choice and destiny. as you can obviously know i am currently just blabbing my thoughts my wild thoughts!

TRUST is an issue i have to say that i myself have a huge problem with. not being introduced and left at the sidelines while u see the two old friends talk makes one mind question what was there or what might be there. its complex yet simple. just a straight line. how could one world just change from fairly sweet and happy to a crumbling cave? stories told are twisted and repeated differently yet from the same mouth? how could one life remain unchanged and unfazed?

lots of thoughts just come and go but some stay permanently implanting themselves deep. so enquiring minds wanna know - how could one trust again? is there anything you wanna tell me?

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008 ( 18 DAYS LATE )

2008-01-17T22:57:00.000-08:00

This year has started out on the lowest step it could have ever been. but according to all the zodiac readings ( virgo - this year is a great year) i may not really believe it kinda sceptic but part of me is holding on to it. i hope and pray it turns out well for everyone. my family especially. my priority is you. but i'm apart yet still i want to know everything thats happening back home. so please. insyaallah this could be a better year as before.

how 2007 would have been remembered - a year of fun filled joy sadness problems yet in the midst of it i found peace sometimes and war too. i found nice friends and some shaky ones but we held on. and i found you. i am grateful for everything thats been happening to me. very grateful. thank you allah! its making me who i am slowly but i cant complain anymore. i am appreciative for everything. there is always a reason this happened so. yeah. ill leave it up to you.

take care this year everyone. make the right choices!

with love,
yours truly.

Merry Christmas!

2007-12-27T19:59:00.000-08:00

that christmas night was hilariously stupid! BUT all FUN!!!
it was really great to meet up with the whole clique again and WATCHING geok get drunk and puking out non stop but going home at 6.45am the next day was a long time memory for me! HAHAHA...

anyway, pics (some of them) from the wacky night!

BORED! bored! BORED!

2007-12-18T21:41:00.000-08:00

what am i to do?tell me. i thought it would be so nice and all being at your own place and voila its otherwise! ITS really crap and dramatic! i dont need all this shit in my life seriously! but my gosh! WHATS with this all!!! I WANNA go out out out! arrrgghhh!!!!

GROW UP MAN!

anyway - i have no idea what to write but that i miss you loads even though i talk to ya on the phone but what more can i expect - nothing! PRECISELY!

SUCKS

FLASHBACK

2007-12-08T17:15:00.000-08:00

its almost coming to an end for this 2007! this is the most extreme year for me personally.

1) had to leave my hometown to some far away place - hahaha... palmy. NZ. which at first seemed pretty exciting and "student city" but OH MY GOD! its nothing you could ever expect - NOTHING. practically without friends - YOU are monotonously DEAD nothing. hahaha

2) ample amounts of pukes which are unforced errors. ( embarrassing )

3) my OWN car! NOT paid by me though....hahaha (not counted)

4) moved 3 times in a year - when back home i've never shifted houses before!

5) GETTING fatter as usual! AHHHHHHHHHHH...

6) many stupid mistakes - and i mean STUPID AS IN 110% DUMB. which questions my stable mindset plenty a times! seriously.

7) met a guy! YEAH! NICE GUY which turned out - thank god! (though the rollercoaster loves going the down the steep slopes!!!!)

8) 21!!!! old baby old!!!

9) actually seriously watched soccer.????? unlike me.

10) I've managed to fly - hahahaha!!!! LAME..

11) too many to be listed but 2007! my gosh! can it get any better or worst??

but i'm enjoying the ride and just loving it all... though sometimes it is a freaking torture to wake up in the morning....hahahaha......

2007-12-05T19:24:00.000-08:00

i dont get it at all. its nearing soon and still you act like its normal. i feel otherwise. i know i'm resistant to change. but i'm hoping you show more - anything. its bad enough you wont be there. not looking forward. but ill keep my heads up, and regardless or not i get anything - just anything in anyway. ill just countdown. its getting tougher for me. really.

suprised

2007-12-04T15:53:00.000-08:00

It was the best thing i could have ever received! sorry babez - i know its kinda pathetic if you guys consider it BUT I DONT! it was such a suprise and i didnt know he could actually have that romantic THING in him!!!! he got me flowers unexpectedly! without any reason - no special day nothing. we walked into countdown and he just said - must i get you flowers? or was it ill get you flowers?

i cant remember i was just stunned that he did. OHHHH....i give up! hahaha...i am a sucker for flowers! really. he doesnt seem like the type! took me by suprise really! and HE GOT A PLUS POINT! love it! now those pretty little flowrrs are beautifying my lovely room! at the window! SO proud of it! its my blissful moments! i love him! haha! THANKS sooo much!!!! HEEE....and its blooming! some of the buds are blooming... pretty!!!

HOME

2007-12-03T03:16:00.000-08:00

its december - been a year! thats pretty quick. it kinda flew by really fast but one thing for sure is i'm excited to go back yet my heart is probably still here. partly. i cant wait to see my mom and dad and siblings and KITTIES...friends and all. but i'm parting from you. though its like a month and probably 2 weeks or a little less. but i am. i dont want to. i love to see you everyday and though we have rally messed up days but ill miss you. i know that. in time i guess we'll grow fond of being apart but i hope its not too fond that we both forget. lots of fears and insecurities will settle in but lets seehow this distance will test us. i will miss you i know. i hope you will too...

anyway, exmas are over and flying pretty much is NOT yet but soon. so my gosh, i dont know whats up! passed everything thank god! SO yeah, 2007 (really unexpected)!!
missing ya!

complete idiots

2007-11-27T01:44:00.000-08:00

let me sum up my whole day today - simple, its a day to learn the stupidiest stuff ever and to keep it well in the memories in order to LEARN!

well, the four crazy luns were together - reza, noel, sharifee and i. we were driving up to wellington to collect my BED! anyway, enough said. we had to tow it back so it was a timely journey of about 2 hours there and back each(cant speed) so - lets start,

1) none of us had ever used a tow thingy - NONE.SO it was simple to us follow the instructions given and manipulate it...to the best of our abilities.
THEN: sharifee was testing it he drifted down redwood grove picked noel up and all was ok! SO reza took over and....it was smooth sailing..then suddenly, just passing university...BOOM BOOM BAM BAM....we all turned to look behind and THE TOW thingy was going wild..!!! OSCILLATING to its left and right and my heart practically stopped! scared shitless! luckily quick thinking reza(cause i would have never thought of it) pressed the brakes slowly..intermittently! if not for that it would have come in straight...to us..anyway..it all happened like in the movies..the towey summersaulted and bam..crashed and rolled and burned down the road! THANKFULLY no cars at the back.. a sweet guy ahead pulled over and reversed and asked if we were ok. we WERE! LOL...

2) SO the drive back to the caltex was the most nerve wrecking thing ever..i texted baby and guess he came... to witness..... ANOTHER incident!.....
INCIDENT no. 2: we were (me and reza) uncomfortably keeping a close watch on the trailer and then BAM BAM it went again.to think of it. when i fly the PFLWOP(emergency landings) we always say "dear pax, do not panic...." HOLY COW-- i was practically screaming my lungs and heart out!!! SERIOUSLY! and pointing to it..didnt help the situation or keeping others calm even reza started freaking out..poor poor sharifee had to be in control with our hysterical panics in the air!

SO my baby ROBz came to help and all was good after that..was hard for me to part with him - cause i was really scared shitless - really . and just him being there made me calm down and relax but I HAD TO GO! so...bye bye robz....

on the way there we were laughing and laughing and reminiscing it all..stupid as the journey just began?!??!

anyway, it was ok took the bed then....CAR couldnt start - guess fuel went way too low and the steep angle of the slope we were on kinda tilted the fuel making it hard to move...so INCIDENT NO. 3!...but that was good...and THEN LIGHT DRIZZLE started!
the trailer was ROOFLESS! man!!! there goes sunning the bed!

SO..we were all set to go back and to head out for nandos...motorway coming..oohh gone..next thing we knew..a guy pulled close to us pointing to us..so we wound down the window and..the guy said.YOUR MATTRESS JUST FLEW OFF!! what the fuck!!!
we turned around and went WTH!!! at first we thought he said NICE MATTRESS..so we smiled! then again - WE are all deaf!

so we pulled over and HAHAH! next thing we knew me and reza having been delegated the task to run back to find the mattress..got "pulled over" by the police - why ARE you guys walking on the motorway..simple answer - cause we lost our mattress!! HAHAHA...so we were sent to the patrol car to drive us back to sharifee and noel - well we kinda got fined - 150 and details taken down! SHIT MAN! hahaha...not funny.. so here we go again the total towing took the mattress and dumped it at the car wash..so back to welly we went..with the police guy driving us to it! to get where it was exaclty placed...he was kinda laughing and giggling when we just merely followed him..hahha..he lead us to the exit! johnnesville exit! HAHA.. so we had to go to willis st and vivien st. couldnt gt any better! so WE TIED the bloody mattresses down and VOILA...made it back! i drove back after the refuelling cause the guys were tired and I BOUGHT V! some energy drink which according to robz, i dont need it cause i've got wayyy too much energy! HAHA...

anyway, now i am on my bed - and comfortable! what a day! SHEESH!!! not dumb BUT seriously LUCKY...both times no cars at the back! PHEW!!!

at ease

2007-11-26T01:49:00.000-08:00

THANK GOD! seriously - i am fully at ease. really. my major worries(FOR NOW - notice the bold) are kinda at ease! PHEW. still surviving - i am happy! also - what more can i ask for - lol - i see my bubz everyday! heeee..blissfully loved!

YAWN

2007-11-17T21:43:00.000-08:00

i am tired. yawn. very tired.yawn.
(tuesday - till then) ill wait.
tired.

just wonderful

2007-11-16T14:28:00.000-08:00

"Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived."

OH YEAH - most embarassing thing today - haha.... VERY EMBARRASSIN! hahaha..to be written here- my instructor jun even laughed and said here we go again~ hahaha! OH MY GOD! hliarious - even jason KFC was laughing!!!

the best morning!

2007-11-16T00:05:00.000-08:00

this could be the best rude awakening ever which was highly anticipated but feared to death! seriously - kinda oxy-moronic BUT i was in total disbelief but THANKING ALLAH sooo much pretty throughout all! thanks sooo much, i passed pof! THE SECTION C I PERSONALLY FOUND IT PRETTY TOUGH - i might have bearly scraped through but i did - luck is on my side for such a short while but i appreciate it so much. 5 down 1 more to go. anyway , guess my PPL is around the corner then its night flying and done for this sem! lets CROSS my fingers i get this thing done without that mch of GFx's to be done! hahaha.... but today was really an eye opener to.

TO SENTHIL - thanks for being alive! it seems pretty different when you know someone doing a mayday but i'm glad you walked out alright! DONT worry so much ok! just thank your lucky stars!!!!! got us all worried about you! HUGZ!

WANTED

2007-11-14T02:48:00.000-08:00

i am where i am i do what i usually do where i am u know how i am u know. till then .

EXAMS are OVER!!!!!

2007-11-13T23:07:00.000-08:00

OOHHH WWAHHHH!!!! farewell exams! AVUA! ciao!!!! tata!!!! todeh!!!

3 straight weeks of brain damage! ok not so - those stuff eventually will help me in my PPL groundwork but - finally no more REMOTE INDICTAING COMPASS!!! hhhahahaa.... remotely stored in my brain somewhere! haha......

well... loads of happy things to do now - i wanna go camping, hiking, to the BEACH! -snorkelling, running , sightseeing, relaxing , flying..... spend time with HIM!!! hhahaa...... and more time with him and him and him and HIM. till he goes back home to AKL. i guess which is prob in like 2 weeks time. SHIT! ( sad ) well, if thats what a girl gotta do - then ill prob just have to ....

ANYWAY - come on.... cheer up! EXAM over!!! hhaah!!!!! lets have some time to PARTTAYYY!!! hahaha

Invisibility Cloak

2007-11-13T02:52:00.000-08:00

what should you do if
1) you were already ready for bed and awaiting sleep and someone is online still chatting for ages with a supposedly good friend - also known as ex?

2)cant seem to chat to you online for ages but can do so with the other?

3)when the other party gets worked up if its the other way around? as in - come on log off TIMe for SLEEP......rest...what have you?

how should someone react? invisible? or normal? ENQUIRING MINDS WANT to know?

2007-11-11T18:17:00.000-08:00

some things never change....

2007-11-11T17:49:00.000-08:00

double standards and tough luck i guess. some things never change. its just a thought that brewed up in this already saturated "water" brain of mine after reading something. is it an offence for women to be successful at the same time able to be independant and live up to herself and aims? why do men shudder and flee at the sight of these women who are on par with them yet chase practically HUNT with extreme hunger and devotion for those who are "below their ranks". AND why do women fall to their knees and practically FLUNG themselves onto successful men? while shy away and "bitch" about those successful women - the very same gender? WHY ?

why do men get the easy way out - no matter what - we women practically dote on them irregardless of their paycheck, looks, character and what have you. BUT men have all the ample chances to choose - why dont they step up the game and go for one which sits on the higher shelves and not just befriend them as a competitor and nothing more. those girls have made it in their courier wise - but cant you still see through it. they are the same as anyone else - plain janes who just worked a little harder than the majority but are still little girls which are asking those litlle boys to love them for who they are naturally and not their status. can a guy handle that? looking past their success and to find just a girl who wishes to be noticed by someone who would cherish her.....

and women - stop looking for men with full pockets - eventually those pockets will empty except for those really lucky ones out there but WAKE UP - u dont go for someone cause of materialism. open your eyes - dont flock to a guy degrade yourself just for plain pamperism(if there is even such a word)they worked hard too, but why does the world see it from two different prospects. are women actually meant to be stay at home wives and no more? are we just meant to be the less superior sex? are men the "lucky" gender who can pick and chose everything.

its strange but ill never understand. irregardless i hope i make my dreams reality and probably one day i might meet my match - i wonder..... will he shy away or step up? or will i be the girl who flocks to them. BETTER BE THE FIRST ONE! come on jenna! i'd rather be single and happy and living my dream then to have a shallow hal for company.

TO MY GOOD FRIEND JASMIN -

2007-11-06T23:41:00.000-08:00

ok i have been reading your blog and i realised this - u are depressed and living a motionless life now which to you has no meaning so here are my thoughts dedicated especially to you - i hope you understand where i am coming from -

JASMIN KEE LI TING - never should you dwell on your past mistakes. i know i have no idea exactly what happened so i am not here to give you advice on what should have been done or how to get out of it - but i am here to kick you so that you wake up your idea -

when shit happens babe - you can remain depressed and we will be there for you but when it prolongs and takes the hell out of you from losing appetite and surviving on water and to you its a "god" like life to see your ass and fats going down - well reality check - you losing your fluid, your muscles and yourself - GO CHECK IT - your fats will still be there by starving u starve your muscles. next what happened to that girl who CAN LIVE WITHOUT GUYS or STAND BY HERSELF - babe we all have problems but life goes on the world still spins and time doesnt wait for u. GET a grip - what do you expect - him to run back to you - what people to pity you or what. WE can only lend a ear or shoulder but the best thing we can do is pray that you get your fucking sense back and STAND ON YOUR OWN TWO FEET. this is life - its what YOU make the most out of it.

dont let someone govern it. you choose. so if u want to remain in this state then jasmin I PITY YOU. i pity you for being weak. i pity you for succumbing to this problem you have and not trying to be strong. its tough its difficult but babe you were born for a purpose. search yourself babe - get a hold of yourself - please. when i first knew you YOU had so much potential and an "i- dont - give- a - damn" attitude. thats what you are. where did you go. GIRL - please dont dump yourself futher in this hole you got stuck in. get out of it. its disgusting to see you continue diging yourself in it when what you should be doing is climbing out of it.

I know i sound like a bitch and probably you think i have not felt what you have - but i think i can say that i been where you are though we are the same age but i guess i got in a worst hole then you - just that probably thankfully somehow i managed to get myself or prob just my fingers at the top of the hole i was in and someone else pulled me out of it. SO please hold your head high up and stop this shit you are doing and breathe. if you werent meant to be - move on. someone out there is waiting for you to just cross his path. in the meantime - enjoy your life and dont waste it away - you only have 1 chance to live each second so make the most out of it.

love you babe - all the best

about blank . com

2007-11-06T02:27:00.000-08:00

its been about a week and a half that i've just been emotionally blank. i get pissed off really quick and i try to make myself laugh. but its not working. F*&^ its really not! i dont know why - i hate exams. whats the point of them when u have many tests before them. ( see i dont usually bloody complain over exams ) i think its getting to me -

i think i really just need a break from this. as in leave everything and just relax and enjoy my time here. with my friends. i think my problem is my patience has reached its limit and i dislike waiting. waiting for answers waiting for the weather to get better waiting for everything. waiting for slow replies on msn waiting for texts. damn it.

blank.

everyone has plans. but i am waiting. for what?

break.

HOT SEXY - marshmellow man! SOOO ADORABLE!

2007-11-02T16:42:00.000-07:00

he is such an adorable and CUTE little baby boy! his name is tristan! but oh my god -he is sooooooo cute! ill bet a million bucks if you guys could not keep your hands of him! his cheeks just roses up and his cute little smile! man this small boy - is one good ladies man i think - he attracts women naturally!!! hahaha...adorable! i think he is like mr marshmellow man! AARRGHHHH, i cant get my hands off him! just wanna GRAB him and run away! LOL....

1) me and the "sexy baby"
2) me and 2 hot boys...LOL
3) mr ...hard at work - cooking or grilling AAAHHHH bbq-ing! (sorry i stole this pic)

SONGS i am into now- for now..

2007-11-02T16:37:00.000-07:00

(SCROLL DOWN FOR CUTE PICTURES!!!)
TOO LATE TO APOLOGIZE - one republic....

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like an angel, heavens not the thing for you,
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologizes, it's too late
Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah

I'm holding your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

(do you know) - PING PONG SONG - enrique iglesias (hot shit)

Do you know?
Do you know?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on
the door has changed?

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can't get it to speak
Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give.

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on
the door has changed?

How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
If you just don't talk to me, babe.

I flow through my act
There's a question: Is she needed?
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did
I could never see us ending like this.

(Do you know?)

Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that's never ever happened to me.

(Do you know?)

But after this episode I don't see
You could never tell the next thing life could be

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on

the door has changed?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on
the door has changed?

(Do you know?)
(Do you know?)
(Do you know?)
(Do you know?)

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock
on the door has changed?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
(Do you know how it feels?)
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock
on the door has changed?
(Do you know how it feels?)

(Do you know? Do you know? Do you know? Do you?)
(Do you know? Do you know? Do you know? Do you?)

21 year old!

2007-11-01T15:48:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY MICHELLE KOH XUE-YING! aka JE VIRUS QUEEN!

wish i was there to celebrate your ageing self!!! hahaha!!!!! you wacko! when i am back you better be free! or else ill camp outside your front porch and scream your name till the middle of the night! hahah!!! forget - andrew...( is that his name..omg..i forgot)sheeeshhh i forgot al your bf's names! crap!

farewell and safe journey - nenek.

2007-10-31T20:27:00.000-07:00

NOV 1ST 2007 - nenek, rest in peace.
@ 1.14pm got a call from bro (rayner) telling me about it.

mummy hope you and your sisters and bro are alright. dont worry i sedekah al fatehah already! i wish i was there to bathe her too.....

love ya!

wake up and stop dreaming

2007-10-31T14:53:00.000-07:00

its finally obvious. seriously obvious. i have been right all along. i just knew it deep down it was like that. from the very beginning it was pretty vague but slowly it was kinda obvious. maybe just maybe i was just trying too hard or seriously pretending to myself that hey probably i could be his type. nah, i told paz i wasnt from the very beginning. but no constant reassurance from him was - nah dont think he is like that.... but PAZ - you are so wrong.

its all good. i think its best to realize it now then later. how could you try to be someone's type when you are what you are. i tried changing - like being more girly or wateva but sorry, i figured this is me. i am the fat tomboyish mega crazy haired think-too-much loud cry-baby jealous rough stupid but trying to not look that dumb eager to take on challenges not confident pessimistic bitch hopeless in housework selfish brat loves food to much to ever go on a diet playful smiley nosy gossipper hairy( yeah thats right - read it again......i am lol) trying to be pretty loser-fied sometimes need reassurance SULKER major complain queen and an ASIAN(aka yellow skinned black hair and dark brown eyes). hey come to think about it. thats me all summed up in words. well whaddayou know.....

stop dreaming - ill never be anyones type. but prob one day......... someone who wants some chaos in his life would come..lol ..... for now, its exams...let me mug mug mug.....

for those of you wondering what the hell this post is about - absolutely nothing. dont worry papz, ma or bong or powder - i am fine. u know your little girl( not so little anymore actually- actually never have i been..haha) or baby sister is FINE.. you know me, ill always be fine. just gonna keep smiling!

Favourite Quotes of the Day!

2007-10-29T16:00:00.000-07:00

1) They say good things come to those who wait - So does it mean i'm getting the leftovers???

2) My love for you is like diarrhoea - i cant hold it in (HAHAHA!!!!)

3) The fact that i'm missing my teeth just means that there's more room for your tongue ( for all those aging people out there - keep the love strong .... know what i'm sayin'.....hahahha - hilariously gross)

4) Whom we love the best to them we say the least... ( not for me - i say wayyy more to them then anyone - thats why i've been told i'm LOUD n Talkative - just cant shut up! hahah!)

5) Its the expected that keeps us standing, but the unexpected that keeps us alive! (nice one........very motivating)

6) PICK ME. CHOOSE ME. LOVE ME.. (all time grey's anatomy favourite!!!!!)

7) Every great oak tree was once a nut who stood its ground. ( this has been a personal quote which i live by..)

8) When once you have tasted flight, you will forever walk the earth with your eyes turned skyward, for there you have been, and there you will always long to return. (by our very own - LEORNADO DA VINCI)

CEDARians forever!

2007-10-26T17:06:00.001-07:00

thank GOD i went there! alhamdulillah! i would have never met you crazy people who made my life a living hell ( joking ) YOU guys made it PERFECT! would you have ever thought our friendship would last theis long???? oh man!!! oh man!!!!! TEARS!!!! AARGGHHHHH.................

looking back....

2007-10-26T16:50:00.000-07:00

hey to my all babes back home.. - MICH,JAS,GEOK,ELAINE,SH.
was browsing through facebook then i saw a link via jasmin's saying - CEDAR GIRLS SEC SCHOOL. my oh my, i was so thriled to chlick it. and BOY, i never regretted being there. yo uguys made my days in high school awesome and so much fun. remember every morning we had morning PT - BLOODY 150 guy push ups every mon- wed- fri! and jasmin being the timer always saying - DOWN!! hahaha.... far out...i am getting the chilles and swell in my eyes writing this. i dont know but i seriously am so grateful i went there!

i was 1 point short from entering TKGS.(tanjong kating girls') and the first time i had to go to cedar i was disappointed - the colour of the uniform i beg you. a factory worker...but as time passed i realized damn we got one of the best uniform after faded.... was sooo cool..compared to the GREEN uniform...of TKGS. michelle- remember the lollipop that i tried stuffing in my mouth cause (i cant remember her name ..geez) could do it..and i did it in ms. fiona's english lesson..and got stuck! hahaha.... and then we were separated in upper sec. YOU took literature with jasmin and geok and i took geography. and elaine took history. thats when we met SH. remember mich i had the lowest like 9/100 for Social Studies - and I CRIED..AND fuck, wen ting also cried and we thought how bad she did..so i started comforting her..all knowing she missed getting A1 by a point! and i - who got the lowest was comforting her! HAHAHA..far out! where was the justice!!!hahahha

oh the days of runnning and bitching all over school....hahah...and how instead of sitting in our class we always sat right in front during the gatherings in the hall and made sooo much noise especially once we were the seniors - oh man! reading sessions became gossip sessions - and so fourth. then one by one started dating. of course mich - u and DD!! i remember asking does his tongue get hooked kissing your braces?? (damn i was mean to you ...haha..sorry) heck, those days were awesome superb and shit, we were the bomb man! we made trouble for all the prefects especially christina - my buddy. knowing she was my buddy - man.... the more i didnt listen to her!..... far out.. i finally realized how much that school changed me and how you guys played such an important role in my LIFE! thanks sooooo much! SERIOUSLY...... love you babes!!!! cant wait to be back...... I'VE got soooo much to tell and be told....i hope! hahah

record breaking news!!! SUPRISE!!

2007-10-24T15:34:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 26 BIRTHDAY TASHA!!! old woman!!!
do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed!!! OH MY GOD! what a shocker! NAH - ITS enrique iglesias NEW SONG!!! OK its not so new but for a non-radio owner like me - ITS bloody new! HAHHAa....

all the songs nowadays seems to reflect all the hardships and troubles and personal experiences that seems to be kinda sad. hmmm, well i think they'll manage well. we all should. anyway, your truly watched LOVE ACTUALLY last night - oh my god! thats the sweetest movie ever! and i mean ever.man if i had the guy which fell for the portugese lady and went all the way to see her and even learnt her language - man ill be PFFFTT!! swept off my feet! or the "prime minister" oohh!!! BUT the sweetest was the best friend which confessed his feelings for keira knightley..in the end..and all these while she thought he hated her...oh man!!! TEAR!!!!

oh MY GOD! mainly this entry would be about how shocking i could be. i have to admit that i suck in ball games - poor psychomotor skills(suprisingly i am surviving flying!) anyway, robz told me to play soccer for his friends without asking me first but in the end i agreed. all knwoing i couldnt play soccer even if my life depended on it! man the flying balls are scary to death man! seriously but
1)I HAD FUN(thats a shocker)
2)I SERIOUSLY had fun (thats seriously a shocker)
3)the team(oman) won gold(OK they played it not me...but HAHAH!!! they are awesome man) they really are talented!
4)so i got a medal for myself (though i sat down most of the time) BUT HEY i gave my support by screaming - (shocker major)
5)i usually get medals for other stuff (HAHAHA...)
6) OH THEN robs team had dinner over his place - major stunner - he allowed me to help him take care of the chicken!!! hahahahaha.......(COOL)

the day couldnt end any better!!!! beamzzz...

anyway, it was a lovely SUPER DUPER lovey dovey SHOW!!!but someone i knew SLEPT!!! bah!!!! SLEPT! haiz, what can i say....low EQ! hahaha...hint hint he cold learn a thing or two from that SHOW! hahaha...jokes* oohhh wahhh....reminds me of being at the airport and seeing people reuniting with their loved ones! hahaha..would i be like that! i have no idea.. i THINK ill be sniggering and jumping and laughing and OH MY SON! i cant wait to see you!!! HAHAHA.... 3 years old - big boy!!!

anyway, my exams are just around the corner, and i mean around the corner! I CANT WAIT FOR IT TO FINISH THOUGH. WHAT SCARES ME is the fact that i'm planning what to do after it already. practically - and not thinking abot it! OH MY GOD! JENNA!!! get back to your studies!!! HAHAHA...... ohoh and thanks RAY for that ever so mature(its not sarcasm its serious appreciation here) but motivational encouragement!!! LOVE YA bro!!!!

Pondering Thoughts....

2007-10-13T18:02:00.000-07:00

When you least expected things to occur it actually does occur when you're seriously unprepared. ITs the second day of EID MUBARAK( HARI RAYA ) and it seems to be pretty good. First day was unexpected being far from home and all. You didnt expect to be invited by wonderful families who opened their house and cooked for complete strangers and invite them.... the food was great! MY tummy had never felt soooo stuffed ever! Sayur lodeh, rendang, CHICKEN!!! sambal goreng, serunding...cookies and cakes!! AND konyaku jelly with cocktail fruits in it!!! OH mY gOD!!! they even cooked a second round for the lot of us to bring home and eat! INDULGENCE was last nights motto!

ANYWAY, i am in a fixed riht now i guess. Making decisions for my future and its not going anywhere. Advices given are one sided based on the person you ask and it seems pretty obvious why they do so - $$$. You want whats best for your future and seek the best means possible. I personally am not aiming to go to SIA.(SQ) WHY?? its a personal choice i guess - i love flying. though i think i am kinda crap in it ocmpared to others but i love it. its fun excotong and always different to the previous flights you have ever encountered. but why should i rush into having whats on the plate in front of me? its a choice of wanting to take it or not. it would be priviledged to be selected but whats plan b if you dont? i'm young- i want to explore the world and see what other great opportunities can be given to me. my family is always in my heart and i love them very much, but if there were greater opportunities for me out there - wouldnt it be great if i took them? how would i know where they would lead to..?

I want to get my PPL, CPL, MEIR and now i figured, by having an IR WOULD really give you a strong background and better plan b. i may have settled here well made friends, fallen in love? i dont know but, i need to do this. it would give me a wider choice but $$ is a concern and i aint rich but am contented with what i have - surviving well - i could even put on weight - isnt that a sign of prosperity..haha...but if there could be someone out there to help make this decision of mine easier . please by all means...i need you .......

BORA BORA!!!!!!!!

2007-10-08T16:43:00.000-07:00

oh my god!!!!! LOOK at this!!! this is what i call serenity! and beauty and its BORA BORA!!! look at the colour of the sea! its crystal clear BLUE! u could go diving, snorkelling, swimming or just JUMP INTO IT and get sucked into its wonderous beauty OH MY GOD!!! this is where (one day......lol) i could go to for just a relaxing fun and enjoyment! ever since i saw the travel and living channel and saw this babe at bora bora I WAS caught in it!!! JUST LOOK AT IT!! NATURE AT ITS BEST!! imagine you and your loved ones just having a ball of a time there enjoying each others company and LAUGHTER.......... thats just AWESOME fun........

OH mich, sorry but ill miss your birthday babe, i am only back 22nd december. which reminds me!! OH MY GOD............ i havent booked my flight BACK!!! hahhhahahaha..bummer...

blame it on the SUN!!

2007-10-05T17:07:00.000-07:00

the sun scorching hot, th winf violently strong but cooling, the sky blue and clear... perfect for some outdoor game! but why am i indoors? well just a few thoughts that i conjured up - i personally understand it i hope - not feeling the love at all!

Girls - gone were the days where you could hope and dream he walkes after you to hold you back and say STAY with me. letting the ego boosting self down once in awhile would sure solve mostly everything. well, its hard to not compare but wouldnt people try their best to change yet still remain true to oneself and doing the same but slightly different actions then they are used to. going all out to show how much you cherish the other party would be sooo awesome and charming and most of all appreciated - but... when one refuses to budge and say its not him - does it show how much you are cherished? endless times have you gone back to settle stuff but GIRLS realize it - if its always you ALWAYS YOU.....coming back...u know the answer... he doesnt give a damn...

BOYS - assuming is not the key and the " let someone go, if she comes back to you, means you got her" works out pretty fine - BUT if its all the time..... you're losing her. seriously. step up your game. patience has its limits and stretched beyond it only breaks it all... so get out of your comforst zone drop the macho-ness and once in a while just show how much u cherish her....

hope this works out for most of ya'll out there! crossing fingers!!! HEEEE

time flies pretty quick!

2007-10-01T03:11:00.000-07:00

suprisingly it still feels as though semester 2 just started but oh man! next week is my last lecture week before the examinations begun and MAJOR mugging begins...i havnt been playing pool for some time now i miss it but heck i think i prefer my "regular" every fridays with my classmates - MAJOR SPORTS DAY..that is...used to be basketball and whatever comes...now it seems like the group is expanding and more games are involved. NOW IT SEEMS to take a heavy weightage on touch rugby. oohh, and we have our TRI nations! ( INTERNATIONALS vs LOCALS) oh man! i heard from MR kah keat the internationals won in the touch but LOST in the soccer( erm...suprising) and basketball.....i think cause of the locals - mark and all!! BUT heck....this week lets see who gets it!!! COMPETITION STARTS!!1 HAHAH....(our very own)

well, it seems like this week should be my ppl, but weather seems to crap up..ill just be patient and wait on it....oohh getting nervous to death but i want i tsoo badly.....heeee so i can fly with peter lee, sharifee, porge, jason...even KAH KEAT himself! oohhhh.....cross fingers and pray everything goes well!!!! I HOPE.... well.... time is flying by and soon, i'm coming back home to singapore - hEard the weather is HEATING UP!!! oh man!!!! sun tan here i come!!! hahaha... BURNT TO DEATH I GUESS!!! HAAH..oh man.. when was the last time the temperature soared till 42 degrees!!! i cant rememeber!!1 AT ALL.... haha....

OOHHH bugger, nervous wanna go to the beach soon and also prob windmill farm..i cant believe i havent gone up that HILL!!!! i wanna go somewhere soon!!!1 HAHAHA.... well.......i want my loving now!!! HAHAHA....cya!

went to the beach!

2007-09-21T03:46:00.000-07:00

its seriusly random but the weather was awesome..nice sun! VERY WARM and so we decided to have an all girls beach outing for a tan! its embarassing to note tha back home going to the beach with a bikini was kinda "taboo" for me cause i was shy..still shy but who the hell cares now..let the blubber show..its an all girls anyway...plus the beach was soooo wide and spacious...so not many people around..lol.....had fun though...frisbee and soccer ..hahaha.......and sand flying around and "tramping"...hahahha.....whole mag the one in blue slept in the sun for her tan...i jumped into the freezing sea??? ocean?? whatever the WATER! HHAHA...

is it normal?

2007-09-18T03:22:00.000-07:00

more PICS!!!

2007-09-11T01:49:00.000-07:00

MY happy 21st!

2007-09-11T01:31:00.000-07:00

it was a blASt! suprised party by mel and good food! we had curry, roti, VEGE, pasta, fried rice, chicken nibbles - YUM - samosa! YUM! SERIOUSLY.... she cooked it all from scratch and i had a flavour of mexican food too fro mthe other mel. WAS planned to go for a dinner with robz but suddenly he texted me saying we had to push it back to 8. i was starving but all was ok. then WE HAD to lead roy and weizhong to pick lingi up...something fishy cause they knew hot to go to his place and reached there before us....HMMM...but fine.they left...so we drove to mels place for my pressie....thats when i got it.... HAPPY birthday! I WAS laughing...smiling..had fun! HAD THIS GUY red asking about girls! LOL. was ok at first got irritated after a while but oVERALL it was nice....but i still miss spending some time with my babe...lol... BUT THANKS for going to mels place when i know u werent comfy ..nice pretend about LET ME GET TO MY FIGHTING ABILITY! bah!!!! but i have pics!!! here thery are......ENJOY..thanks everyone THANKS! sooo much.i appreciated it alot...and i love all ALL ALL YOUR PRESSIES!!!

birthday bash - bloody ruined!!!! LOL

2007-09-05T04:53:00.000-07:00

can you believe it how pissed one could get plaaning so hard about a birthday bash and all that eventually occured was you explaining yourself why you were doing some things which pissed him off!!! and u had to throw the all the stuff at him an HOUR bloody shit 60 minutes before the actual time! to shut him up and finally explain everything!
and then next thing u know u recieve a full 180 degrees mood swing and smiles and the great welcome and come back dont go! fucking hell!!!!! all 2 weeks of trying to plan it all out resulted to this stupid stuff AN HOUR beofre the actual day!!!!!! and th very best thing was he had the cheeks to laugh and say u gave me all of it before my birthday! AAAHHHH he has nerves man!!!! the nerves for saying thaht!!!!
and he could say why did u throw it on the florr! the freaking man utd ronaldo jersey! sheesh!!!!! but happy birtthday knowing the cut i gave him on his tummy for swinging my keys at him really hard!!! served u right!!! but al is good! now just awaitin freaking 12 midnight to wich him happy 22 birthday!!!! ROBZ!!

at peace!

2007-09-03T01:39:00.000-07:00

alhamdulillah! OH MY GOD!!!! I am soooooo thankful for the short break i took! it has re-energised me sooo much more and kinda made me sooo happy! actually not kinda BUT VERY! heee..blush blush* it was such a nice weekend thanks! that baby- tristan was and is sooooo bloody CUTE! sheesh..... ITS LIke u wanna squish him and not let go! oh boy..soooo cute and lovable! and i like it when i see u play with him and act all childish too! AND WHEN HE looks at u all wierd! lol.....hilarious!
i was all nerved up at first about this but then i really got a whole 180 perspect change! it was awesome everyone was sooo nice and welcoming and danny - was great man! hahaha.....everyone...heee..... and most of all YOU..being there everyday! made it sweet and warm! HEEEE!!!!i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy!

lazy week but hectic schedule!

2007-08-27T03:35:00.000-07:00

ok man! here it goes. i am feeling sooo lazy and lethargic these past few days to get up and run! i need to run ! havent ran for ages! like .... approximately 4 days already. not like i run fast or anything but more like i just run for relaxing and enjoying the view as i past..wateva i am crapping myself up anyway....aarrgghhh!! nothing to write! il just waste this damn post!!! and ray if u call and i dont pick up either i am sleeping or CALL BACK!! goondu!

enjoyed and suffered in the name of SUBWAY!

2007-08-24T03:17:00.000-07:00

never ever sohuld u bet with a dude who will not admit defeat even though its obvious that he lost! me and rupert robertshawe had a major bet that the winner of this spicy noodle cooked by our killer chef sharifee made by a whole bunch of 2 fistfull amounts of chillies! WE cant drink more like me but he could only drink with coke! at first sight of the amount of chillies we were regretting it. but no ego in the way we continued! NOW i am suffering of the past post winning! i finished all of it with freaking mucus leaking out badly and crying my eyes out! and EARS seriously steaming hot! i was freaking shivering and shaking at the noodle! now my tummy hurts soo bad! seriously! feel like puking i couldnt almost drive home but successful! its really painful now! SERVES ME RIGHT! rupert didnt wanna lose but that boy just knew it! OOUUCHH,...its painful now~

anyway he didnt finish his food and packed it! i bet u he will throw it away! both of us were in tears man! its really that bad!!! in pain now! chillies oh man!!! anyway i won a subway sandwich! yeah! BUT IN PAIN!

major club night with all my friends! crazy pool too!

2007-08-11T20:00:00.000-07:00

JOJO - HANA - ME - TIIA
CAN u see him at the corner with the brown jacket..talking...he hates taking pictures!! tiia and i and the soccer people!

below is my gang! my classmate and the girls !!!
and extra run ins!!
we were all at jones bar! at first it was me, tiia(finnish girl in the brown jacket) and hana (the japanese in black) playing pool. then Mr came with his friends and they started competing with tiia! she is soo absoultely good in pool that i bet she trashed them! having a ball of our time. then we went to the dancefloor and i danced with hana. oohhh greatest news clinton aka bobby... he prefers being called that .... DANCES sooo well..(there goes the i cant dance mindset anymore) good footwork ... he was dancing with his friends and we were watching from afar.. anyway..then my classmates showed up and friends from the uni itself...vijeeta,amy,andrea,judith and eric and loads more came...and woah it got hyper!!! girls nite!!!!! we had sooo much fun!!! all the girls hanged out together and the guys and bobby, left to high flyers but it was sooo fun!!! we were laughing clapping and jojo- from hawaii was teaching us how to do the hula!!! WOAH SHE is awesome!! shake that bootay!!!! HAHAHA........ but it was a let your hair down night plus cause mr was there felt more comfortable to do so cause i know he would be there to keep an eye on me.. enjoy!!!!

updated pics!!!!

2007-08-09T04:50:00.000-07:00

oohhh here are some pics!!! thats me and steph she is from singapore too....massey 49!.......... enjoy........

the proper one with mr in it!

2007-08-05T04:59:00.001-07:00

my desktop photo! And sports!

2007-08-05T04:45:00.000-07:00

Alrighty! UPDATES!!!! well just the previous sunday i took part in a duathlon.my first ever . usually it would be in triathlons and biathlons and all that with the swim component involved but nah not this time..i was too bored and wanted to get back into my love! so yeah i did it...legs were like lead but hey hey not too shabby . met the NZ under23 top 4 guy and another which will be representing NZ in USA ITU...wooo.....they were madly INSANE!!! swift and superb! woah....

anyway, continue well it was flying week this week but i only flew on MONDAY and no more....like weather horrible! so been sorta free..i crashed mel's class strategic management! its interesting indeed! anyway....what else did i do......

OOHHH, slowly getting my fitness regime back but slowly but hope so ! takes time aye.to get used to it..anyway, me ate steak at firshermans with Goat aka victor oikini! WAS GOSSIPPING for ages the whole way about MR! OOH..if only he knew........ but no worries got me into deep shit but i hope now he knows... soooo.... watched blood diamond - awesome show seriously! and had hells pizza but oh man! i ordered hot as hell sauce and fuck! its hot as hell!!(ooops mind the language) heee...sooo...watched at MR house with his pals...its kinda awesome listening to them speak in their language.....really fascinating...i just kept listening and observing him converse...not bad aye! ooh also went to the bbq at his place the day before.....and thats when we cooked massive pancakes man@!yeah! yum yum! so whats new..nothing much....oohh and mummy i am eating gulab jamun here!!! imagine! lovely!

so to ya'll hope all is well cause so far its been aight for me...... test next week!!! MUG MUG MUG!

sports day!

2007-07-31T03:42:00.000-07:00

today i had the best sports day ever..remember those times when i was young and asked my mom to buy for me a soccer ball cause i wanted to grow tall. and she did but no one was interested in playing so i just shoot hoops and all..so i ditched the idea of ever playing basketball. buit today when our flights were cancelled mark wilson asked whether we wanted a sports day and b.ball day...so i went i would but i dont know how to play..he said its the best sport on earth and easy to pick up..so i went sure...we played from 11.30 to 5.10pm! tired!!! but it was all WORTH IT!! rupert who flew by university prmoised to shake his wings...sorta to say its him...
so several planes flew by and THEN one of them did it... steeply!!

we cheered and wave and it was him!! talk about a fun day!! i was sooo excited!! ooh and 2 days ago i did my first ever duathlon! legs were like lead but i loved it!!! slowly baby steps getting back to it....love my sports!!

BEAMING WITH GLEE!!

2007-07-25T01:24:00.000-07:00

thanks sooo much! i know you hate harry potter ok not hate but it aint your type of movie genre. i know you kept forgetting (as an act) that we were supposed to watch harry potter but for you to get the book for me is AWESOME! thanks sooo much! seriously............ i am soooo happy and thankful!!!! HARRY RON HERMOINE here i come!!!!

THANKS babe!!!! SOOO much! i really appreciate it slouchy! heee!!!

engine revving up!

2007-07-18T15:17:00.000-07:00

alright, semester 2 has officially bagan 4 days ago. its my flying week now which doesnt seem to be like it as i've been "grounded" due to weather. there is a front which refuses to give me great weather conditions! well ok fine its a multiple of them but my butt is itching to fly. i've been plannind and planning but to no avail. hmmm, well ill just have to keep my fingers crossed and now just wait for the weekends to fly. i want to fly ..damn it!
ok so the week after that, will be lectures week! ooh finally i have a reasom to get up at about 7 everyday and crawl back to sleep about 1 in the morning. we lost 8 in our class but gained 6 from the previous batch. ill miss my ol' friends but its life. (i wont go blabbering abot how i feel about life-dont worry).
NOW.... there are a few things which i dont seem to understand. Tostesterone creatures. they think we are complicated - i agree but they aint simple minded though. From a personal point of view and present experience - they are governed by 2 facts - hunger and ego. sometimes its bearable other times u just wished u had a shotgun! ooh, recently, i had a friend which wasnt so close to me but has since started confiding in me and so do i. i thought mine was messed up but oh thank god its simple and clear cut as compared to hers......... i kinda pity her. but tostesterone-ness in her life hasnt been going really well.............. THAT CREATURE is without a doubt an imbecile. its reasons for all the action done is pathetic and ludicrous. PUH-LEAZE mr, my advice stop digging yourself dipper in the hole which you have already buried yourself in!
anyway, ITS kinda pointless cause i am merely blabbering my doubts here but i do wish you get it.......

Lappie is my best friend!

2007-07-12T18:48:00.000-07:00

woah talk about ages of not blogging at all! i've been checking this site out everyday to spot any new comments but i just dont have the energy to type some ludicrous stuff out about my everyday life i guess...ok prob i aint in a sweet mood now, leaning much more to the foul side. weather has been pretty bad these days - resulting in poor flight advancement! i've been stuck on NAV 5 FOR TOO LONG! ok - bitching again.everyone is going through the same stuff anyway.

well talk about planning to have a break! i had 4 days of nothing to do! supposed to get a flight but weather again..so if i did take a break i wouldnt have lost out in anything! BUT i would have gained some relaxing times! SHESSH! but what can i do now.... sem2 starts on16th july! just wait till mid sem break i guess! SEPTEMBER! i havent even been skiing or wadeva. the snow caps are simply a sight for the eyes - gorgeously white! ruapehu is covered! taranaki - oh talk about wanting to roll arund in snow....one of these weekends! i am going!

HARRY POTTER - is out! order of pheonix! cant wait to watch it this weekend! seriously ill dumo anything to watch this show! cant wait aye! awesome plots and i cant wait to see ron again! i love his messy hairdo! ooh been a movie marathoner - if i continue on like this i guess il be watching about 200++ almost 300 by the end of this year! imagine that ! somtimes i watch movies all day - like 2 movies! ok not all day! hhah but somewhere there!

ohh i am an aunty right?? i guess.. my cousin is giving birth! to a pretty baby girl! OOHH, a niece! how nice! i cant wait for one of my siblings to get married and then have their own kid! then that BABY is MINE!!!! all mine!!! belongs to me!!! noone else but me! ooh so gonna pamper that baby! but for now, they gotta find the partner first! HMMMMMMMM......takes time......

UPDATES!!!

2007-06-28T04:47:00.000-07:00

anyway, hi there! oh yeah, lemme say today i had my solo navigation. guess what i kinda freaked..not knowing where i was going though i flew once to each of these places man, its like throwing you alone somewhere and finding yourself but with speed you cant stop but make sure your altitude and all are safe haha, but THANK god i survived! alhamdulillah! hahaha..i fnot GOOD LUCK! nah, i guess ill live! one way or another..ill force myself to come back! i hope! anyway feast your eyes on the dumbest photos but please forgive me for my vanity - i am vain! when boredom strikes and all you have is your phone with camera.... so all you do is click click click! haah...MUAHzz

IN FLIGHT! solo!

2007-06-28T04:45:00.000-07:00

finally pictures ( ok vanity strikes)

2007-06-28T04:27:00.000-07:00

past, present , future??

2007-06-21T04:01:00.000-07:00

the first time i ever saw you and remembered was when you were playing soccer with that beanie on. as usual screaming your lungs out and laughing with the boys. it was your forte unlike me - i hated it. didnt understand anything about it and found it a tad too boring.(which i take it all back now - its kinda exciting sometimes) well, secretly, i liked you. i kept it hidden for some time until i had no choice but to tell the truth. i remeber being bugged about who i like and how that made me worry whether should i really tell you the truth? the logging out after telling you and how you went "are you serious".... lol. hilarious.
reminded me of the stupid monopoly game and all. was sooo terrible. you would never admit defeat and till today you still refuse to but i'm sweet with it.
if i didnt tell, would i have known you? would i have been on my toes and smiling this happily and also sometimes having heartaches. if i went the other way, and gave the other a go...what would have happened? sometimes i still wonder but i'm glad i did what i did.
the start was rough and i never said that it gotten any smoother though. complicated and confused - sometimes really lost. but i dont know, i smile alot with you. extreme ends at the same time, a rush of emotions but happy. i hope its the same for you.
babe, i know you'll be leaving but till then i hope this goes well. for sure there will be quarrels and such but i hope we both could stay happy. i know this is mushy stuff but hey - give me a break. somewhere to state my feelings.
heee, and for those of you reading this...haha you should know how i'm feeling now..... in la la land...... and smiling........MUAHZ!

MOVED!

2007-06-19T04:12:00.000-07:00

i have finally moved! MY address is.................
Jenna Arriola
Room 78
Palmy 31
31 Ngata Street
Palmerston North
New Zealand!
hahahah.....thats sooo exciting! thanks to my little angels for helping me move (mel,cain and jason)- its suprising how i came here with one huge luggage bag and a hand carry luggage and now i needed 3 cars to move my stuff...all in just 6 months! hmmm makes you wonder how much i have aye! but it seriously isnt alot! hahah..well new place new beginning.........................

HOLZ are here...

2007-06-14T18:01:00.000-07:00

EXAMS are OVER! oohh lala....here comes the flights! crossing fingers the S1FE2 will be done! push push push! but i am wanting to take a short break. for just relaxing not long but will take it as a semester break...heee..depends..prob drive drive drive! and just chill.......LOL.....oohhh excited!

pretentious?

2007-06-14T17:51:00.000-07:00

is there such a word? i have no clue. not too bothered to check the dictionary.com...but here ill go! when you left dont promise that it would all be the same. it will change and in fact it has. the bond aint that solid as we were before. i'm cool with it but dont pretend and act like it never did. everyday it seems much more distant and i'm glad that you made the choice its confidence you have which i admire but just stop pretending.
we were close, got closer but now i dont know. you say "i'm doing it for you" but in fact its half heartedly. if it is..dont do it. i dont expect much but be frank. tell me. we're good friends remember that but what am i now?
its just left me wondering....hahaah.....

SWEARS

2007-06-07T04:38:00.000-07:00

holy shit balls! todays moment is terribly screwed. its hilariously embarrassing! WHat The F*@%! had the flight today after what seems to be like eternity. so yeah, weather was fine - freaking 27027G32 and 2000ft wind 27030G45...really GReaT weather?!?! (bah!) the ride was sooo smooth that mel and keagan had their heads hitting the roof like multiple times..... was sweet at 700'.... then we came to LL366....descended to about 300' AGL...and woah, was alright for some time, till suddenly , dumb ol' me wearing freaking warm jacket on that sunny day...... so Blooody warm.... started perspiring.....and then we left the zone and.."you have control" i said t james...tell me about it, a student telling the instructor YOU HAVE CONTROL..he seemed shocked at first until i seriously couldnt bare it any longer i just let the controls free and surrendered the controls..and OUT IT ALL CAME...... "blueckz...." hahah...chicken and potatoes..how nice........ still as yummy as it was when it first entered.... HAHAHA... damn for all people . .... it had to be with keagan my other flight bud.... MELs ok, she knows me really well..so haha, it was unforgiving! AND JAMES laughed..thank god for JIMMY! he knows my shit well enough that beofre the flight he ran out and grab some bags............ ooohhh wah! LOVE THAT DUDE!

anyway, what else happened.......... nothing much, besides getting laughed at for speaking my mind.....but its all cool......yo peepz, never utter a word again......or it would just be a joke.....SWEET......Tiu lei lo mo.....

lastly my room! before i move out....

2007-06-04T03:35:00.001-07:00

NOW its pics of MIRAGE!

2007-06-04T03:31:00.000-07:00

finally some pictures from boredom! as per normal!

2007-06-04T03:24:00.000-07:00

tomorrow is a new day.

2007-05-27T05:57:00.000-07:00

today seems like a terrible day for someone i know. it all seemed fine - the weather, the sun the mood and the settings - until i got the text. my morning was good, had 10 hrs of sleep = 20hrs of sleep points! thus 20 hrs of being awake. its study all day today and yeah practically study. but i'm crossing my fingers about the exam but hopefully - insyaallah ill be able to. heee..
anyway, sorry let's get back to the down side - i really dont know what to say. was really shocked by the decision you guys made but worst, i was appalled to know the reson behind it. i may not know what to say to make you happy hun, but you know i have a shoulder for you to cry on and my parents gave me good ears to listen. so yeah, please dont hesitate. you do not have to act so tough sometimes - everyone has bad days and deserve the rights to let it all out. so stop trying to act so tough. who do you need to prove it to. just break, fall get up and start again - good advice(but i never can take my own) guess it happens to everyone.
but to you wierdo, sorry. i dont know why i kinda felt like that it happens all the time - i'm not really that confident as i look sometimes and my insecurities are kinda endless. so i'm really sorry. lol.
(if u read on, you'll know why.) - but hey, what do you expect. i'm human! lol(trying to back myself up here, heeeee...)
MUAHZ.....

AVUA.

2007-05-26T05:25:00.000-07:00

there comes a time in everyone's life when you know its totally messed up and its the best choice to walk. well, i think i agree with it. when all goes well, happiness just seems never ending and when the moment dies, the truth comes out. well, what do you know. i guess everyone learns from mistakes they made and eventually toughen up.
trust is a huge word which not many understands. it takes years to build yet seconds to crumble. its a word used in vain. it takes two to tango yet one to just side slip and the dance is off. you think you understand it but in actual fact, you dont. you lost it.

studying - how long can one study a day? is having a break important - according to some yes but not to others. how long can one brain work efficiently...... i guess to some jaffa's or kuku's(mel you know what i mean) the brain works continuously for long periods of time and never seizes. well what do you know - i guess thats what the beanie is for. it doesnt retain heat it tries to retain facts as once its off, its a no brainer. so cheers to ya mate. enjoy.

half way there!

2007-05-24T05:27:00.001-07:00

alrighty, to top this week i just had to say some really random thing - mel honey, foundation doesnt cover it up! i can see it from afar! LOL.
oohh wah, i think i'm starting to crap up here. lets just roughly state what happened this past week.
Mel (the other snake) has found herself a man. that lucky girl! she's been really happy this few days and it makes me happy too. (damn that sounds kinds dodgy) but yeah, i really like seeing people happy. it just seems to rub off and it feels really great. the week passed really quick - tests and tests but there's always time for gossips.
OH HI PAPA! welcome home for awhile. glad to know that you guys are doing fine back home. i LOVE you all to bits and u know that. hi mommy! (trying to be a filial daughter) LOL
oh crap what am i to say, just that thi sbloody week is speeding by fast and guess what my days of not flying is ever increasing and its like ....... 21 days already! what a nice period. oohhh, yeah AND the river has arrived - if u know what i mean.
Wanna have more pictures but i aint got any time for it, guess ill change my phone back so that i can take more pics to add it on! heee....
hugz and kisses - tomorrow is systems test, or should i say today. well, gtg !
LOve Ya!

more pics!

2007-05-17T19:58:00.001-07:00

exams creeping up.

2007-05-17T19:46:00.000-07:00

what can i say? hmmm. what can i say? these past few days have been getting back on its own path really well. my emotional trauma of the rollercoaster ride has finally reach ground i hope where its kinda stable there. its been great so far - thanks! (you know who you are) not as complicated and confusing as before - and dinner was great! just take care of the eyes! LOL

navigation exam is over. i dont know how ill fair but i'm crossing my fingers i did the best i could. so we'll see how i performed once the results are out. oh AND i cancelled my flight today cause i got a runner for a nose. its really sprinting and trying to do some stunts! haha. but all is well, this sudden sickness came from stress i bet! and fatigue! hahha( human factors crap!) but i love it. i need stress to live man if not there's nothing happening about it.

ooh, tomorrow i'm going to wellington to see a car. hope ill get that one. its a 1499cc mazda familia automatic. though i really wanted a manual though. but hey when i get a money ill prob change the gearing. haha. whats the point of having a manual license when all u drive is an auto one...hahah...but not in a rush for manual but in a push for a car or else .....heee PPL bye! praying. anyway, what else can i say, I'M REALLY HAPPY these days and.......AS u can see i'm getting more prosperous............. and ooh, DAMN gotta start dieting! ooh
supermarket shopping here i come! PAK n sAVE!

snakes! AND paulson smells! - class!

2007-05-07T23:32:00.000-07:00

(NONE! part 1)

2007-05-07T23:18:00.000-07:00

again yours truly has no idea what to give this entry a title. whats new? my mind has been going insane these past few weeks. everything is happening really unexpectedly and vroooomm here comes the tests and exam period! i'm so extremely GAY now! i scored the highest so far in all my test 92! (ehem, not in my class but in my tests) oh but i got into top 7 of the highest scoring! and it feels superbly awesome! hahah... HUman Factors. i think the "woman" cant remember her name - my lecturer in human factors learnie?? i have no clue said my name as in arriola as one of the top but i didnt hear it. keagan asked me hey jenna did she say it was u, and i went? huh....i dont think so... cause i never seemed to pay attention when she announces stuff like that..dont bother! but haha, keagan was called he got 90 and he belonged to the top 7 so i guess, my name was called! excited, porge and kiri too were tops..95 and 99 respectively! YEAH! GIRLS RULE! hahaha...anyway, gotta study met, last minute cramping into the goddamned brains of mine...22 chpts in 2 days ok i exagerrated but somewhere there...heee..abt 12 hahah!i guess....

well what else should i say, erm i have a 5000 report to do and to be handed in this friday and yikes, not done! ill burn the midnight oil on thursday night i guess..no biggy! then slack through on friday! OOHHH, my flatmates still not talking soo much, i miss those happy days we had...but what the hell, i'm trying to talk nicely but damn that SPOILT BRAT(who apparently is the oldest in my flat) is throwing his never-ending tantrums cause why? i aint listening to him! F..... haha..okie. gonna drink hot milo man! went jogging oohh la la , how long has it been....flabby tummy and blubbery butt! HAHAH....

love ya!

WHY?

2007-05-07T05:14:00.000-07:00

is the world turning back on me? i'm tired of just keeping a fair and happy face everytime i am home. if u dont like it that what i do was my choice and is what i want . u cant chose who i want to be with and stop making up things in your mind. if u dont want to eat at the same table as me, dont. if u refuse to accept the fact that i chose the other instead of the one u guys prefer i'm sorry. i dont care..i am happy with him. very but u guys just dont understand........
ill try to be happy heee..but i can only take so much. so please just support wat i do....and i will be thankful...
i'm sooooooooo tired.........

more lame BORED pics! bare with ME!

2007-04-26T02:39:00.000-07:00

YUMMY! CHOC ECLAIR AND LIME ICE CREAM WITH RANDOM nuts!! OOHHH AH!

WHEN BOREDOM STRIKES!

2007-04-26T02:33:00.000-07:00

look at that pathetic lamer! haha, i was sooooo bored!

Friday the 13th and 25th APRIL 2007!

2007-04-25T01:14:00.000-07:00

this two days are a days to remember! they really are super duperishly HAppening! FRIDAY the 13th of April 2007 is in fact the day of my first solo flight! but hey hey hey, guess what i Bounced! sweet! it was soo embarassing - got graded for my bounce and got 9's and 7's and 5's..hahah but hey all was good! i landed and haha, for my 2nd solo, i seriously screwed it all up and failed my sortie! haha, but then found out that its normal - so got a second chance and hey hey hey! Did it! haha, SCARY but i managed to land - in one piece and made it back safely so all is GOOD! i guess..hhha! GUESS WHAT! ECHO WAS MY FIRST SOLO PLANE! HAHAH...miss echo bonjelo....haha...and ayate..and mikiblu.ok ill start naming all my cats and my 2 fishy - james bond and angelina jolie! hahah...MUACKZ!

next, today(25th april 2007) i played my first soccer match! hahaah..big deal for me ah. despite my phobia for soccer balls and the bad incident of my toe going all the way backwards by kicking someone elses back foot - during a swiming camp! hhaha I THINK ITS cool! heheee...but scary but cool! seems like everything is scary eh..haha..i know BAD VOCAB sense..anyway, i scored 3 goals! against another girl who knew nuts abt soccer to but I'M SWEET with it..supposed to be a stand in for just making the numbers but hey hey hey...it was cool...played baseball today too...OH AND ITS ANZAC day! so its a holiday..oh and and i suck in batting..i really do! haha.but my pitching striked loads of ppl out! happy..ooh jenna GETTING FATTER! i think...not paid to think but i think..hahhaha....

more pictures....I HOPE!

2007-04-16T06:08:00.000-07:00

FIRST SOLO!

2007-04-16T05:25:00.000-07:00

ooh! kinda excites! got my first solo on the 13th APrIL 2007! its friday the 13! get excited! oh my god the feeling is seriously slow to swallow u up at first but i think i still havent seriously realized that i went solo...haha, cause i still land like a hard potato sack! haha..but insyaallah ill get better!heehee ( i better )haha..

anyway, summary on AKL and rotorua trip! auckland was alright man. nothing much seriously,went to sky tower and just chilled out. 7 of us went haha 5 of us squeezed into a room! for 2! hah..how original. noel.sharifee,cosmo(humpy ichigo).peter.royston.wei chong.and me! hahaah.so next day went to waiwera water park!thats cool..spant like half a day man.the slides were awesome!woo hhooo! then ate lunch at roys place.went mount eden.then.........off to rotorua stinks at first..as in literally..hha....cause of its hot steam thingy. but stayed at backpackers .ate subway(wow)! then played games by ourselves..seriously reatarded games hahah.....tiu tiu tiu bang bang!....twister! and the next day went to skyline! played luge!oh hell that was the best man!!!sliding down the mtn with that go-cart thingy hahaha!! damn fast man!! phew! thank god none of us seriously got injured...except for roy..hhhahh...

so then i drove back to palmy....i think it was 200+ km!hahh..or was it miles? haha..no clue..but took about 4 to 5 hrs i think or 6! hahah...noel got speeding ticket, 35 demerit pts,170 fine! hahah..the BANG! HAHAH...fun stuff..oooh and.......i drove back all the way..hhah..fastest speed 160! hahh..km/h..phew..along desert road! by mt.ruapehu! hahah...sweet as! oh enjoy some photos!

AKL!

2007-04-05T23:12:00.000-07:00

woohooo, going to auckland! hahaha, actually i was supposed to go sydney but i decided too epensive and being a good daughter who doesnt like spending MONEY hahaha,

Sharifee: "Yah rite..... Go Auckland no need to spend money ah??? "ooh thats from my friend! hahaha....

anyway, that guy also going.haha.how unlucky! woo hooo..oh and updated pictures from the most recent aeroclub. everyone was drunk except a few of us! hahaha.

so feast ur eyes on them!

my BUD - RUPERTY RUP RUP(2.02m TALL)

2007-03-29T03:46:00.000-07:00

FINALE!

2007-03-26T02:41:00.000-07:00

more randoms! NOEL'S nightmare! so IS OURS!

2007-03-26T02:14:00.000-07:00

random Pictures of US @ milson!

2007-03-26T01:51:00.000-07:00

TO PAPA!

2007-03-23T03:52:00.000-07:00

hi papz! how have u been eh? seriously i think you are the sweetest MAN in my life.haha, u always appear so hard and strong on the outside and so confident and all but deep inside you're mummy's baby who never grows up and is always wanting love! haha..so cute just like your unborn over expired baby in your tummy I LOVE U ALL THE SAME! seriously u are really really missed but i cant always think about you and the rest back home cause ill be missing home then and then i wont be having fun here..like what u said i need to satnd on my own feet..PAPA, no worries ok, i may not be calling u always or emailing u but u are always in my heart and its because of YOU, i am here and i promise u one thing, I'M GOING TO GET MY WINGS FOR YOU! there is no one else i wanna make more proud then the guy who got my mom pregnant! hahah how sweet is that!
hahah, CHUBBY AND PAPPY!
i think i got that right> oh and mommy i love ya too..heehee...